I have so many things to say.

But sometimes I wonder—say them to whom?

The more I understand human nature, the more difficult it becomes to believe that people are ever completely without intention. Every word has a reason. Every action has a motive. People admire you, care about you, support you—but sometimes admiration itself becomes something else when it goes too far.

Life is tough. And after enough trauma, disappointment, and experience, you begin to see things in people that you once couldn't. You start noticing what lies beneath the words.

And honestly, it can be deeply disappointing.

Then I remember something a wise man once said:

"It is what it is."

So be it.

I have spent a significant part of my life wanting to create something meaningful—to give the world something great, or at least that has always been my intention.

But the closer I get to understanding the world, the more I ask myself:

Is it even worth it?

Mass manipulation. People slowly becoming something they don't even realize they're becoming. And somehow, most don't stop to look inward and ask why.

I once read a quote:

"When I was intelligent, I wanted to change the world. When I became wise, I changed myself."

I understand the wisdom in that.

But sometimes I wonder whether accepting the world exactly as it is can also become a form of cowardice.

One of my senior colleagues once told me:

"The world still works because good people continue doing their work. But my question is—at what cost?"

That's the question that stays with me.

Can I be a good person and still give humanity something extraordinary?

Can I pursue something great without sacrificing the life I have?

Because perhaps you can't have everything.

If I chase one path, I may slowly lose something on another.

And maybe balance doesn't always work when you want to do something fundamentally different.

So who am I?

Just another mortal being who will die on some random day?

Or can I leave something behind—something that makes the world move even a little faster, think a little differently, or become something better than it was before me?

I don't simply want to exist and disappear.

I want to leave an imprint on this world—not for fame, not for admiration, and not because I want people to remember my name.

I want to create something that pushes humanity, even in some small way, toward a more advanced and meaningful future.

Something that makes me able to look back at my life and say:

I was here. I tried. I gave something. now i die peacefully

Maybe that's what I'm really searching for.

Maybe I have to carve my own path.

Maybe some people will call me mad.

Let them.

I have to use every ounce of intelligence, wisdom, discipline, and courage I have to find out where that path leads.

I don't want to die feeling like I was worthless.

I already have many of the things people spend their lives chasing: stability, work, a home, and a reasonably secure life.

And yet the craving for something more hasn't disappeared.

Maybe that's the part of myself I've been trying to silence.

Maybe it's time to stop numbing myself psychologically and start facing myself honestly.

I know I may become fragile in the process.

So be it.

Perhaps being a man isn't about never being fragile.

Perhaps it's about facing yourself anyway.

I don't know whether I will succeed.

I don't know whether what I want is even possible.

But I know I have to try.

Because perhaps the greatest tragedy isn't failing to change the world.

Perhaps it is having the ability to try—and choosing not to.

And when everything becomes too complicated, I return to those five words:

It is what it is.

So be it.

The journey to becoming a man demands sacrifice and daring effort to face your own fragile ego and self-centered world. Even after facing that, sometimes you just want to be loved by someone who loves you without any condition.

But in this world, every relation comes with conditions like if, but, money, home, success, and separate home, etc. If you think someone will accept you just as you are, and not want anything from you besides that, it is hardly acceptable as a form of love in our world.

That was me… So what was the lesson?

Dang, it is hard to accept, but it is a myth to become the person you are seeking. Because in the end, nobody cares. If you are fulfilling their needs, that’s it. If you are not, then somebody else will be doing the same things, just that time, it will be not you.

Family ,Friends and Your loved partner

Everyone can break you, but something can break your core.

That thing makes you understand what love is, and that time you understand the value of love. I don’t know what will be next, but isn’t it exciting to not know? Even if it will be great or a disaster, it will be one of the Great life lesson.

No where to go

life, we know is fun, awesome, and sometimes painful
well everyone is different but for some time in life, we met few people who were strict and followed the rules to get success and grab their dream

but running behind that dream we forgot how some time a little quarrel with a close one and fun with them seems so usual we forget that it is a life where we lose time every time we wake up and still we take everything for granted

well ! if you think this is boring so me, it was me. I was too considerate about things that I didn`t cherish that little thing now just in a few years all things I considered make me live my dream being too strict. I was never lose even situation were different and more challenging for me

I cope and wait for my chance but in that process, I lost many close ones due to being to focous for my dreams.

later in that time,Face many emotional and social problems that I try to encounter on my way but whom I am kidding, it was a disaster but after that, I started questioning myself who am I really if I remove my dream and my construct, "how life works"

Sometimes situation makes us so weak that we just lose ourself and starting a new beginning or new phase seems so hard or impossible. a friend whom you think you know,now seems stranger, they are on their journey just you lost that same track with them, and now finding that track is hard.

we usually know how to get out and do our things for best

but when we lose hope, it is just one thing, "Why". I had a dream and I have still a dream but thing is, "WHY" before I know the reason but now I am just lost in the flow of life

where asking "Why" seems unworthy

"It is okay just it is a life"

KARMA IS VERY SIMPLE AND YET COMPLEX AT SAME TIME!

it is the same appear to be in people's lives so if you thinking about that, we know or at least listen karma is a bitch. Actually, it is not right

karma is not scaled, Scale as good and evil, it appears to Christian and Islamic mythology before Christian, greeks have gods like Ares, Zeus, and Athena, etc

other hand roman gods but before the rise of Christianity In greeks and Romans mythology, their gods do deeds, there is no force to balancing like goods and evil but when Christian and Islamic mythology start to appear in that empires they start to introduce the concept of heaven and hell and even they don't believe in rebirth

So every mythology collide

like greeks mythology, it starts to diminish and Christian mythology starts to take place but it starts slowly like that christ people are starting to question the concept of greeks gods like if it is your god is so great why do they have many scandals and flaws.

Other hands our God is perfect so they make a point and this is a point where greeks mythology start to fall and the rise of Christianity in greeks

Even in the Roman region, when a new roman king takes the throne and it makes new law, everyone joins Christianity or else they will be slaughter

Christan, Parsi, and Islamic mythology had the same root but when they were to rise, they choose a different path majorly it was the political influence.

People never fight for right or wrong ,they fight for what they belief

we have to notice that Islamic and indo Islamic is two different mythology but they are connected in deeply rooted

so it was," how good and evil concept born". but Far from western land and hidden by Himalayas valley India(current name)

There was karma concept work not like balancing scale of good and evil. but when other country travelers start to visit India to buy merchants in the buying process they exchange also their thoughts on many things it was one of the mythological views but it was still not dominated until Islamic and east India companies try on concur old India

Hence the domination of their rules had to follow and so their religions in the majority of cases so here we mixed many things and adopt many things. so some words used to be interchangeable like justice to karma. and hence people assume karma is justice but it is different, karma is also related to the rebirth cycle in Indian mythology but in a majority of western mythology, the rebirth concept didn`t exist.

So if people say, "Karma is a Bitch" remember this phrase come from western so the karma word loses its value it becomes an interchangeable word to "justice" but In reality

hope, you have a great day.

Shoulder of crying!

We, As a human being, face many problems
some problem make us, and some broke us
Things are always going on like that in life

But in deep desire of heart, we have one kid
who always want some help as a hug, sometimes a shoulder to cry, and sometimes got angry.
it is not the people that always make us Angry but sometimes
we choose to be Angry to cover our fear of losing.
and complaining why they don`t understand me
We human being taught one thing that is never express our true self
because of the fear of being estimated as weak. 
So we choose anger unconsciously.

what we need is only a shoulder whom we will cry without any fear
it is only one human craving that makes us feel whole again.
In life, as we grow, we become more cautious to be not hurt through
some of our experiences and a few from other experiences. 
It always makes us strict to open ourselves to others even when we tried social norms, it becomes problematic.



so we change our focus and divert to things that make us instantly happy or give pleasure, and it is very easily available on market through the gadget and other forms and our social norms also help us to get instant things instead of a longer gain.

but as a being unique with intelligent and emotionally quality we need a shoulder where we can cry without any hesitation

And I hoping we as human being find soon 
that ."Shoulder of crying!"

Life in lost meaning

When you are introverted and things are socially crumbling for you
suddenly worse happened and what you consider LIFE earning
like Friends, well that was until you Start truly understand

A great thinker said," when you have to know 
the person just wait for your hard time and you will start to
know the truth of person surrounding"

To be honest, we never desire to face that kind of result but it`s happening
and sometimes, it will but for a few lucky, it will never happen
When a person expense it`s all lifetime earning socially norm things so they
blend in society 

We are what you desire to become, I wish it were truth 
we never desire to a victim of a bully or be the socially inept person
sometimes what we feel comfortable, it is considered to be idiotic
so we start to be uncomfortable to blend in that society
because it will give you a kind of safety and purpose to live.
OR We have to accept absurdity and we, it`s kinda red pill of every human
Being.




whatever we will do, we never able to become socially fit society norm
and we have to learn that bitter truth as soon as.
we give a name to socially relations like friends, enemies, and colleague
but it was fit in some level of norms set by human and for every human
, it is different, and that norms changes over time so was relations


Just don`t take anything 
guarantee in life and Specially human relations.

Dear life

Life, First of all I have lots of complain to you, why you make me so much 
lonely
why you always make me see world as if you do with your heart and 
hard work than you will get everything 
but later you teach me ,you are not that simple, you prefer trixious, 
mischievous and alot of things
why why you make me so much soft hearted that I see good in everything and 
later when it become my turn
I am the only one for myself not even one were stay for me 
Dear life I have lots of complain but I know you are just making me strong
sometimes I got tired why me 
sometimes I want give up onyou
sometimes I want to cry
that is too much hard for me ,handling alone, Going alone with you and making
my own path
And it is very different
No one relate to me, for few close one, I am fool
Dear life, Hoping that cherish day will come soon
where I can smile with my heart
where I don`t have to wear mask of emotions to understand others
Dear life ,I know you give everything I wanted ,even that pain I was suffering
it is also demanded by me so you make me stronger but now my shelf of hardness is 
starting to crack 
I need your hope ,I need you as a my love not as a Teacher
Dear life ,I never had you as my lover ,Every time you teach me as Teacher
but now I want you as Lover
Love you ,my Dear Life
Hope everything will be better between us!

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The Myers–Briggs Type or people usually say MBTI

It is usually slightly influenced by Carl Jung In 1921, when Carl Jung publish his book "Psychological Types" Where he said, there are two types of deafult Human attitude towards the world

1-Extravert 2-Introvert

Carl Jung also added four types of function

*Sensation *Feeling *Thinking *intuition

After two years this book English translation read by two people, Katharine Cook Briggs and her daughter, Isabel Briggs Myers in 1923, where they find similarity between their idea or Carl Jung.

Carl Jung idea on that topic is not accessible all world so they want to make worldwide understood his idea but time passes and world war 2nd was going on where Myers believed if people understood each otherthey will be work together and less conflict so she spends her life 20 years developing "MBTI Instrument" and publish in 1962.

MBTI questionnaires are published by Ther Myers-Briggs Company(CPP, inc.)through more updates researched. MBTI trained practitioners were started in 1989.

There are 16 types of MBTI

ISTJ - The Inspector ISTP - The Crafter ISFJ - The Protector ISFP - The Artist INFJ - The Advocate INFP - The Mediator INTJ - The Architect INTP - The Thinker ESTP - The Persuader ESTJ - The Director ESFP - The Performer ESFJ - The Caregiver ENFP - The Champion ENFJ - The Giver ENTP - The Debater ENTJ - The Commander

ISTJ(introversion, sensing, thinking, judgment)-

there are two types of personality Assertive Logistician (ISTJ-A) Turbulent Logistician (ISTJ-T) ISTJ is a reliable and practical type of person but when they put in a different situation than they start showing a different way of thinking even they have the Same ISTJ personality.

Here some survey Results! Questions:- When they put the situation and asked what they want? Answers:- 27% of Turbulent Logisticians don`t know what they want and the rest of Assertive Logisticians(63%) know what they exactly want in Life. Questions:- When we put questions about what they have expectations about their own lives and what is their source? Answers :- 46% of Turbulent Logisticians said their expectations are what they want and other hand Assertive Logisticians(64%) said their expectations are " what they think will happen".

Self-confidence Survey results:- Turbulent Logisticians (17%) rate themselves low and very low confidence. Assertive Logisticians (52%) rate themselves high and very high confidence. Straight forward Survey Results:- Turbulent Logisticians (52%) - Have difficulty showing Straightforwardness. Assertive Logisticians (72%) - Have no difficulty at all showing any Straightforwardness. Body Image Survey Results:- Turbulent Logisticians (33%) - Don`t Have a healthy way of seeing their Body Image. Assertive Logisticians (81%) - Have a healthy way of seeing their Body Image.

Being Offended Survey Results:- Turbulent Logisticians (19%) -They get offended easily. Assertive Logisticians (48%) -They get rarely Offended. Anger Management Survey Results:- Turbulent Logisticians (57%) -they get Angry Easily. Assertive Logisticians (30%) -they don`t get angry easily.